Wow, Its been a year since I done this and didn't take it serious, well... Now there's no choice is there?! I created this thinking I could stop my world from collapsing and then, I forgot all about it and thought I was tough. I spent two weeks "taking a break" and organizing my life before I went right back to where I was and guess what, thanks to Covid-19 and other dumb shit, here I am!
As we venture further along you'll learn more about me and my whole damn story. But for now lets just say I didn't take care of myself, at all, and here I am, healing, which seems to be a huge issue for parents. Especially parents who might be looked at as a bad influence because they have a bad past, or listen to loud music, or just don't fit in to a mold.
At 15 I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, I thought this was the coolest thing in the world at the time because I was not only visibly different, I was just out there all together. It wasn't fun at all, I was hospitalized more than a few times, I tried to take my life more than a few times, and I became a terrible person and hurting others was my game.. just being honest.
With age I realized the curse, and with the help of more doctors (a lot more) we determined it was more than just Bipolar, when we found this out I was a parent, and it crushed me thinking my kids could be the same. I was also at a "you are a new dad just keep working or everyone will die" mentality and it worked, for about two years.
That was 7 years ago, doesn't seem very long but it feels like a lifetime. I reignited a relationship with my family, and nothing in the world has been easy since. It has however, been a lot more interesting, and at the end of the day I need a place where I can shed intelligent light on things in my own way, and talk about good music, and good cartoons, and this is it, the world has become a very ugly and stupid place, and even the 'dad advice' pages have gone to the political dogs, Strap in and stick around, because this... Is only gonna get worse with encouragement!
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