Muh FAVE band as an adult released the THREE most awesome fucking albums of crappy ole 2020 (a live one, a full length acoustic AND a full length AMAZING covers and more album!!)
There is not many bands these days that I truly make sure is in my rotation. I'm getting into the stages of being an old fart, how it goes I guess. Not that I don't listen to music, I mean all day from the time I turn this laptop on to when it goes off there is music playing. Its my fucking life, and I know A LOT of bands, but I don't follow many at all anymore, unless they do something fun and new. It was about 10 years ago when I heard this band, I was a little late to the party. I was a new Dad, I was a total shitty person, I didn't care if I was falling apart and I wasn't sure why. I was miserable, I was so sad inside because I wasn't Super Dad in a three bedroom house and stable, which was all I had ever been told I had better be or I was going to fail. I was used to being useless, not FEELING useless, BEING so.
One thing I have learned in 25 years of mental health is that I am a fucking mess. Its plain and simple, I have bad days, lots of them. I always will, its not gonna change, the anxiety? It isn't going to get 'better'. I would not have been able to face that without these guys. With their help I learned to own myself, and own the things I did, after playing the blame game for all my issues, this band helped me confront my issues with a God damn baseball bat and start beating them senseless Office Space style, I still do it, and it is still a lot of fun! Most of the time anyways.
When I have a bad day, or a bad minute, or second, this is where I turn. I know everyone has like 'top bands' this is my safe space. I embrace their mess because I have most of the same mess and, the messes they faced, I stood right here waiting to move forward with them. And now that I have a domain name, they are getting a special spot in it. I really hope out of all of the bands I write about, this is the one that just happens to see it. I may have only been here 10 years with ya, but I'll be here 50 more, still bitching along side ya. Through the best, the worst, the honest, the 'not so nice' lyrics. I just want to say thank you, that's it. You helped me face what countless inpatient stays couldn't and were where I turned when I got all my diagnosis that I totally fucking rock today, and I WAS TERRIFIED of them. I am a human because of your music. Here's Off With Their Heads, my top 10, in no order at all! Lets get fast, loud and mad! or, depressed! (no don't!) or, something!
Clear The Air
I know, They prolly seen this and heard about this fucking song like ten million times but you know what?! it goes first, because I heard it first and it has helped me the most. I was brought to some emotional levels when I first heard it, and I still hold it close because I AM ALWAYS FALLING APART! My wife, puts up with so much from me, I am not lying at all with that. She is the MVP and this song helped me put everything into words without MY words to get me some decent help. Thank you for leading me to some decent confrontations with myself. The video, speaks volumes about me as a Dadmented whole.
Keep Falling Down
Yes I do! And I pick myself up with these dudes! Facing your issues can be fast and loud! This song is for every last Doctor that ever got frustrated with my ass when I said I gave up the magic beans they gave me, and went to a different Doc three months later after another breakdown. Look at me... fixing myself and shit...
I Hope You Know
Grief, has always been really hard for me to handle, and when I was a younger dude, the woman who raised me died in her home, in front of my little sister, and I lived somewhere, who knows. I didn't have a good relationship with anyone in my family at this point. I was in ant out of the house, moving constantly, and just wild. I remember when I got the call I came home, went to my Grams viewing, and left from the parking lot again after 20 minutes of being there without looking back. I couldn't cope with not being there, and being the person I was because I was so angry at everyone for stupid reasons. This song helped me address those feelings. Real life... We aren't always good people. I try to express that all the time.
Start Walking
If you relate to this song, it only takes you about 5 seconds to fall in love with it (If its your style of course!). I don't know what else to say other than its like still an anthem.. to this day for me... Ask me in 20 years its most likely gonna be the same answer.
Nightlife
"Never felt worse in my whole life". Those words drove me to seeking partial inpatient treatment at a really cool fucking place that I am not ashamed to admit I have needed more than once in the past couple of year. And trust me, Partial inpatient where you work on yourself all day and get to go home at night, nothing beats that feeling. They are the reason I started this, they gave me all the info I need to help you in the self help side of this, I owe those groups a lot. Even thought I fell asleep in every single fucking morning meeting
Don't Make Me Go
When I got out of the Navy, I fell in love, and moved to California. I boarded a bus, kissed my mom goodbye, and without telling anyone, took a one way trip, I broke her heart completely when I told her I wouldn't be coming back, after avoiding all her phone calls. After 5 of some of the best years in my life. I boarded a bus to come back home, I cried the entire time, I am NOT afraid to admit that. There's about a million things I regret in that situation, but the experience, and the people involved, will always matter to me and hold as much of my heart as my family does. Once again years later, this helped me face that whole situation and everything attached to it. I love my family now, all of them, well.. the close ones that matter the most and never gave up one me even after all I put them through.
Be Good
Schizoaffective disorder, is a fucking mess. Social anxiety, is just as bad, waking up in the middle of the night wondering if I spelled a meme right? Uh yeah, its who I am. You think I am a funny guy? Good because in real life there is a 99% chance that even if we are best friends I will have major issues speaking to you. And whether it has it's meanings or not, this will always be my song to define why I am special. It makes me feel good whether it is supposed to or not. I am a somebody no matter how odd I may be sometimes. I MATTER and so do you. I take a major gamble typing out for the world. But I just wanna help the people who might feel lost. "Its true, Its loud, Its hard, and its all I know"
Old Man
I wanna make this clear first, I don't have "Dad issues", I have a really awesome Dad in my life who goes out of his way to check on me as much as he can in his own ways and has for 34 years. This is more of a battle cry, because I AM ABOVE the influence. I was a statistic and should have created such. My father? I have the dude on Facebook and honestly, sometimes I like to send him pictures of the things when they are happiest. Just so I can show him how much better of a person I am. It is an amazing feeling in my gut. I love hurting his ego just by being kind. I always will, I am not the best person in the world. I never had any songs for him until I heard this, I would like the man to know that when you help create the scenario for creating a 'monster' as a child, you should take some responsibility for it. And he wont, so I do it in his name for him.
Focus On Your Own Family
Uh, Its pretty self descriptive, kind of... This is about as positive as positive can get for me, I get unmotivated a lot with this, and this song puts me right back in check on why I am doing it, no matter how stupid I feel while doing it!
My Own Summer
Thats right, this year, after 10 years of being a dedicated fan, they melted my heart with a cover album.... and.... this... Two of my top five bands, in one moment. Thank you dudes, for everything! PUNK FUCKING ROCK! 🖤🖤
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